As you probably know by now, Adam and I will be heading back to Columbia in April.
We are excited and sad all at once, and the list of things to do is pretty daunting. On top of that, Adam, in a move to save money, decided to get his wisdom teeth taken out here. What was supposed to be a thirty minute procedure has turned into two 2 1/2 hour sessions and a couple of days in the hospital for inpatient surgery. It turns out his teeth are just about as stubborn as he is.
As you may be able to imagine, all these little things can build up into a lot of stress. I keep thinking back to my long lost resolutions of feeling more peaceful and taking life as it comes.
I’ve known intellectually for a while that I can change my own response to life… the whole “respond instead of react” mantra and all of that. And I think I know how to do it. But I don’t always choose to do it.
I think I sometimes like relishing anger and frustration. There’s something so sickly sweet about it. Like candy that starts out too sugary, the more you have, the easier it starts to go down.
Anger begets anger. Peace begets peace.
It’s easy to be peaceful when everything is calm and you have zero stress. I think the true test is when everything around you is nutso. If you can be peaceful then, you know you’ve leveled up in life.
As for anger and chronic frustration, they can provide good conversation when you’ve run out of weather topics, but in the end they are toxic.
There’s a reason the Bible talks about not sleeping on your anger and having peace even in the rough times. These things completely change who you are as a person, even when the changes are so small you don’t realize they’re happening. In the end, it is all completely internal. People who have everything they want can be incredibly angry, while many with horrible circumstances know how to face them with peace. I’d rather choose peace.
Also, I have an exciting announcement! I’ve been working on a proper website and I’ve finally finished! If you have a few moments, please check out Wayfarist Media!
Have a wonderful day!