The rice has started growing again. It’s one of my favorite things to look at here. As I bike up the (excruciating) hill on my way to work, it gives my eyes a momentary, peaceful distraction. This particular field is especially sentimental because it’s one of my solid, early memories of arriving here.
I took this photo two years ago June 4, a couple of days after we arrived in Japan (which was conveniently June 1, otherwise I’d never remember from year to the next what day it was).
Oh hey, did I say two years ago? That’s right! We’ve been here for just over two years, as hard as that is for me to believe, and I’m really excited about it. I remember first arriving and thinking we’d be here for a year and a half, have some fun cultural experiences, make a bunch of money, then leave. One out of four ain’t so bad.
I had no clue how quickly the people of Hiroshima and the city itself would capture me and put me in this whirlwind of my life which I love so very much! I definitely never imagined wanting to stay here long term. Turns out God had some different ideas (fancy that?)
So yeah, with the lateness of this post as a great indicator, the whole balance thing that I started out the year preaching (already six months ago, *insert cliche about how fast the time goes*) has kind of gone by the wayside. I actually began making the balance more important than the things I was trying to be balanced for and since that kind of defeated the purpose, I stopped.
I still think the idea of balance is great, it turns out I just needed to really redefine what balance was. It’s not about allocating specific tasks to each day and making sure you do everything that you need to do to enhance your mind, body and soul. It’s about learning to stop, evaluate where your mind, body and soul are, and then figure out what you need to do to get them balanced. It’s not an outside-in thing, it definitely has to come from within you and that was the thing that I really missed at first.
I’ve realized that my life is nowhere near as crazy as it will be once we have children, so me trying to control every single aspect of my life is only going to make things worse (and probably destroy my family so that’s kind of a big deal, too).
So instead of trying to control my time, I do what needs to get done but I also make sure to do things that I enjoy (which sometimes means putting off “important” things for later). I’ve been embracing teaching and being a housewife (which means mainly cooking… I make Adam do as much of the housework as I can get away with), and I love to experiment with cooking.
I’ve been working hard on my garden which is taking over it’s tiny space and will soon be producing all manner of deliciousness.
I’ve been spending time with the next door neighbors who, by the way, are awesome. Today we had a takoyaki party. Life doesn’t get much better than that.
Often, I find I have all this stuff bouncing around in my head and I can’t figure out which things are important. That’s usually a pretty good indication that it’s time to slow down.
So those are some of the things I’ve been learning about and thinking about lately. I’m pretty sure that the more plugged in we get to social media and other random things outside of ourselves, the less in touch we become with what’s inside. That idea terrifies me. That’s not a place I want to go. On that note, I’m out. What about you? Have you found that magic equilibrium?